God or no God?

I don’t know what I think about God right now. Some days I feel close to saying, That’s it! I am officially an atheist. Other days I feel I am a guest in someone’s house and although I have never met the owner there is evidence of their presence all around me. And some days there are special treats left for me. Spiritual chocolate on my pillow of life! I know, a superficial image but it works for me. So how can I deny the presence of the owner of the guest house?

But then sometimes when I read the newspaper the idea of God just doesn’t make sense. A woman cut the arms off her eleven month-old baby. A child of three was sodomized by her Grandfather. How can there be a God if this is the world God created?

Yet again, how can there not be? High school boys get up at 5am to go shopping to feed needy families for Thanksgiving. High school girls collect thousands of dollars in an impromptu drive to help hurricane victims receive water. A father takes on a second job over the holidays to finance his children’s Christmas. A mother works double overtime to buy her daughter’s Prom dress.

Evil or goodness; mindless violence or self-sacrifice. Which is the Truth? Whichever we choose! God or no God, it’s up to us what kind of world we believe in; it’s up to us what kind of world we create. God doesn’t require our permission in order to exist, rather God has given us permission to reject God’s very existence. But isn’t the world an easier reality to live in if one believes that there is ultimately some positive meaning and purpose, some worthy goal for the whole project? Isn’t it easier to get up in the morning if one believes that Good truly will conquer Evil, that Light will ultimately vanquish the Darkness, that Love is indeed everlasting? It is for me!

About Mona

I am a wife, mother, and author. I taught high school for 27 years and I was a hospital and hospice chaplain until my health required that I retire. I miss my hospital coworkers and cannot imagine how terrible this year and last year have been. I want to be there for them in at least this small way.
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